Assuming or Understanding ???

Hi again. Did you ever get stressed out about your life?? I know it’s a stupid question for me to ask because everyone does. I am asking this question because there are moments in your life when it feels like the level of that stress has rocketed through the sky and reached another galaxy.

I know how that feels. I know it due to many reasons, if I am being honest. I am not exaggerating anything today here. Whatever there is going to be written in today’s blog is real. It’s kinda about my own life experience. I was/am feeling depressed all the time. I say it because well yesterday was a mess. The whole day I felt that I was gonna burst into tears at any moment. The reason for that was not that quite big though. The reason was because all the memories I had came to me at once and it felt horrible.

In my country we have this festival called Holi and it happened yesterday. It’s a festival of saying goodbye to the winter and welcoming summer season. Yesterday I felt we (as in my family) didn’t do much. I woke up real late, as did my sister, and we just spent the day sitting in our own rooms the whole day. I didn’t talk at all to anyone yesterday. It was because the thought that came to me about my past experience of this day. Every year people enjoy this festival by applying various colours to each other’s faces and also play with some water. We did do that in our past and after some point we thought what a terrible way to waste water and the colours. We stopped playing Holi when we grew up. Yet in our of building where we used to live people still visited our house to apply colours to our faces. I saw that we used to laugh at that. I felt like a happy memory. When I thought about that memory it made me sad. I thought that it was a fake smile, fake laughs that I used to show people (the time when I stopped playing Holi). The family that we were doesn’t exist anymore. That was the thought in my head. It was every other day there was since I started to make a change in our house or should I say the day that I started to change. I still remember that day it was not long ago, it was the 27th of December 2018. That day it hit me that it’s been four – five years since I had a plan to be at a position in my life where I wasn’t today. The disappointment took over me. The feeling of anger, sadness devastation came over to me and made me realise that I was unsuccessful in creating my future the way I wanted to do. Now I used to blame people around me for that situation to be like this but I knew deep down that it was all me. The mistakes that were caused were because of the old me. So I decided to kill that old me and create a new me who doesn’t get distracted and focuses on what knows will make him feel satisfied with his life. Now don’t get me wrong but I know that life isn’t just about that, but for some people happiness is in different things. People feel happiness and satisfaction doing various things that they think is right and it is true. If a guy finds happiness by sitting in a chair whole day without doing anything then it is his happiness. If a girl finds happiness drawing various kind of art that is her happiness. If a person finds his happiness in his family then that is his happiness.

The point is that when I realised what my happiness was I felt I was too late for that. All my life until the moment of that day I previously mentioned I tried to find my happiness. I couldn’t back then. I was busy making the people around me happy without noticing that it wasn’t mine, but it was there’s. I know that I can’t say that it was there happiness either because well I don’t know what makes them happy. I just wanted to make everyone happy that’s all. The real reason for that was because I was afraid of the one thing everyone is afraid of and that is the end. I just wanted to make every moment of everyone’s life around me be so amazing that there wouldn’t be a need of the end (or so I believed because I was a dumb kid who used to believe that if you want something so bad that it will happen). As time passed away I realised it doesn’t work that way. The reason that I am writing it is because just when I worte the blog Was it Mindfulness??Was it mindfulness? I talked about that problem that I had of biting my nails so badly that I used to make my fingers bleed sometimes. I used to do so because I thought that maybe doing so will make everything better. My mom knows whenever I start biting my nails way too often that something is wrong and I am in a stressful situation. It happened again just yesterday. I started biting my nails way to much and it freaked me out. I don’t want to bite my nails but I couldn’t help it the fingers just were under my teeth and after sometime I used to realise what I was doing and take them back out.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This all started because of the day to day things happening in my life recently. I read a question and answer content on Quora the question was I am 22 and I feel like I shouldn’t exit, is it right? Well I know that I shouldn’t search this kind of a thing but well I did and a beautiful answers was written by a lady whose name I can’t quite remember. She stated

that it usually happens when you are about to graduate or in the last year of your college and it feels like you have achieved nothing because of your past and the fear of the future that is going to arrive makes you think so.

It was a good answer because it was somewhat true. It also continued as

It also happens because you don’t know what you were doing so far and now you have realised that this isn’t what you wanted to do with your life because this will lead you to do something that will stick with you for your whole life.

I believe what she was trying to tell is that if you don’t like what you are doing that is probably the reason why we feel this way now. For me I knew that this was my last year of college and that I wasn’t doing something that I wanted to do in the first place as this was just supposed to be a support to what I wanted to do originally. Yet I didn’t focus on the original thing and got too busy in this thing itself. The daily college routine and the projects, assignments, the fear of the teachers. I say the fear of the teachers because well in my college (which I won’t name by the way) some teachers are so mean that they don’t ask any reasons or explain politely about our mistakes (committed for the first time) or understand what the student may be going through. In fact our college don’t even have a counselor who would understand a student or talk to him and be a bridge between the teachers, students and parents. You see sometimes students can’t talk to the teachers directly because they are afraid of what the teacher might think. They can’t talk to their parents because well they don’t want to upset them and also protect them from disappointment. A counselor acts as a bridge as a student if brought into confidentiality then he/she might express their thoughts resulting in a good environment and health of the student. In our college it’s not like that. Our teachers don’t understand if a person is going through some things such as depression, anxiety, fear of able to speak up or anything else. They just assume that everyone is the same. I say to all those teachers and professors out there everyone isn’t the same,we might be similar but not the same.

I have been going through some shit of my own as explained above and I can’t talk to people that often. I fear of talking to people as because I don’t trust anyone that I feel may leak my information or just think that I am weird or stupid. I don’t express my feelings that easily to anyone but if a person shows even a little bit of support I act freely with them. This professor that I have (won’t name him either) thinks I act over smart even when I don’t talk. I might have not attended his lectures at first because well his lectures started in December and I had chicken pox the whole December (yeah it happened that late). That time I was alone with my thoughts and as I wasted a whole month doing nothing and I realised everything about what I wanted and what I was doing and about my life.

You see I am writing this here but I still am afraid that people may think that I am stupid and weird but well maybe I am and I don’t know. I just am saying this because I am having a terrible time lately. The professor I mentioned earlier is also the guide to my project (100 marks research work) and he says that I didn’t meet him often and asked him anything about my project and that now I didn’t attend his lectures he is not going to sign on the project. The truth is I missed his first meeting (which I wasn’t aware of till when he informed me himself after I contacted him through WhatsApp). There is a group of students who are under his guidance and mostly the ones who are there are some selfish and overconfident students who act as they are the guides of the projects. I don’t know why am I writing this seriously. But the point is they don’t understand each other or support each other and it hurts when a professor himself treats like he has something against you. I literally want to quit my college right now but because it’s my last year I am holding on and also because of some of my friends support me I am yet standing. This college has given me a really hard time from the start but I promised myself when I took this up that I won’t quit this time until I am done with this thing. So I am still here. It wasn’t just me who felt that way some of my friends did too but we still stayed strong.

I have a phrase of myself as I say or believe that is

If you don’t know, then don’t assume shit.

I believe that if a person doesn’t know what is happening with someone else’s life don’t assume something. It is because you will treat him the way that you would think is right, not keeping in mind that the reason may be different for that person to act that way. I say to everyone out there hold on and get it through. Don’t assume what a person is going through because it creates doubt in your mind and if there’s a doubt then it just will ruin everything for both of you. To the professors out there listen to you student and be supportive, understand his/her feelings. Everybody is not the same. I say it here because I can’t say it out there to the real person, no-one can because of the fear. I say why can’t we live in a world without fear and hate. I say parents and the elder ones , the teachers and professors act friendly towards the young ones because it’s you who are creating the new generation of the world. You are shaping the world and if you do it wrong then the world is going to be disturbed later. I say don’t feel sorry for me, I don’t need sympathy as to be honest, I just need the support of every one out there to know how to act with each and every person. I say it over and over again that everyone isn’t the same and it’s true so be it that way. Support each other. You don’t know how much it hurts when it feels like you are alone and no one there to support you. I say it with experience.

I have a strong will and I take my anger, disappointment, sadness, devastation and convert it into my motivation to stand strong and move ahead. I may feel down the whole time but I won’t give up. When I have the happiness of my own I will be happy and if I am happy then my surroundings will be happy. It is because as I said in some of my previous blogs that if you are happy then your surroundings are happy. Today’s blog had not just one point to be taken into consideration but there were a lot to learn from. We should understand each other. We should help ecah other. Find your happiness so everyone around you will be happy. Don’t give up. The professors understand your students, don’t just assume that the behaviour of a person is because of something that you don’t even know but have assumed, don’t think I am weird or stupid, don’t think anyone is weird or stupid, don’t stop believing, don’t bother. There was a lot more to write but well I have to go work on my project. So keep this in mind people. I know it’s way to personal but I know the people that I am talking about wouldn’t know this and that it will atleast help others who might have gone through some similar situations would understand that we are not alone. I am focused now and I won’t give up this time the way I did before 4-5 years. I won’t fall back just because the people I usually around with don’t support me or assume something shit about me. The one who used to overthink is not there anymore yet sometimes he shows up but I comfort him by talking to him about our aim on life and that’s how I will rise (that’s what I believe or would work hard for).

That’s it for today just remember everyone isn’t the same. Support each other. Understand don’t assume……..

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Moving On or Moving Ahead??

Hi, here’s a question that maybe I have asked before one of my previous blog it goes like this – How do we move on?? The reason why I am asking this question is mentioned below in the blog and you’ll find it somewhat amusingly sad.

Seriously the question speaks for itself. It is clear that that’s what we do or hear people say that’s what they do. The term moving on is defined (emotional) as the thing to accept a situation has changed and be ready to deal with new experiences by the Cambridge dictionary. It is also defined as it means to leave the place where you are staying and go somewhere else. I know you might be thinking why I am explaining the meaning and definitions to you. The reason behind it is I am being haunted by my past and some of the people that I know told me to let it go and move on. Now I know that it’s a really good advice but have you ever thought that maybe the past keeps us motivated somehow. Well we’ve heard that we learn from our mistakes, right? These mistakes are in the past and if we forget or let it go how are we going to avoid those mistakes again? It doesn’t make any sense, does it??

The world tends to have two sides for everything. It means the world is biased with the binary numbers 1 and 0. It is so wrong though. I feel it that way. It’s like we choose whatever we think is right, it still is wrong in some other way. For example take a scenario of a close one of mine (my sister) and the words that she used some days before February 2019 about her pursuing her dream. She was talking about her dream and how she feels it’s hard to fulfill her dream after the age of 22 for her. She is 4 years younger by the way but she just suggested a scenario in front of me. That was the time I was going through the process of changing myself. Now I trusted her more than anyone other person in my house (I don’t trust anyone easily mostly my family and relatives because of my past). That time I was on the verge to tell her my dream but somehow I got this idea that she won’t approve of it and would feel jealous. So I didn’t tell her my story of my dream and just talked in riddles. The point is at that time after somedays and also before 4 years of my life I had told her the same thing about my dream (not the dream but the path). She had told me that time that it was nothing to worry about and that I shouldn’t focus on the time of those 4 years of my life. It was when I was 18/19 -ish. The tables turned and she had the same things to wonder and use the exact same words in front of me. It was her who felt that I was overthinking and was not focusing on my present and way too much concerned about my future at that time. Now she feels that I was right because now she now’s how it feels. You get my point how the world has two sides of everything. I know that I explained about humans though using the word world.

I mean that the fact that moving on is concerned good for us but it’s just not possible. I agree that sometimes we get too busy with our day to day life and forget about everything sometimes but what happens when we are all alone with our thoughts to ourselves. I have felt those emotions just as the same how many people do. They hurt if you don’t have something good happening in your life. Here’s another example, you know how people say that we shouldn’t have expectations? Well that’s just some bullshit. I am being honest here. Everyone have expectations. Expectations are a part of your life . Your whole life is dependent on expectations. What you expect, what your parents except, what people expect, what your family expect and it goes on…… Life’s never without exception. When a child is being born it is because his/hers parents wish to have them. It’s their wish. If we looked further wish is an expectation. The only difference between wish and expectation is that when we work hard it’s for to make that expectation come to life whereas for a wish it’s just a wish. It doesn’t involve working. We wish to go back in time but we can work for the future to get where we expect ourselves to be. The point where I am getting at is about how sometimes we get what we expected for (in a negative way) and it becomes so hard to live. Then at that point people come to you and tell you to move on. How can you if you have something so deep dream of yours crashed down.

I feel angry, sad, stressed out, devastated sometimes thinking about these things when I am all alone in my room thinking about the world and my dreams. The fact that my sister felt the same things that I did when I was 18 and I was unable to chase after my dream at that time by moving on as suggested me by my own sister and my family. I moved on by getting too busy in giving up in everything. The past went by and now I am here with those same thoughts showing up at my door. The only thing is that this time they have developed themselves into much more stronger thoughts leaving me devastated and angry all the time. I tell my sister that she shouldn’t give up all the time but as I am changing my sister finds it hard to deal with me and doesn’t talk to me much. It’s the same way around because I feel that she’s jealous of me and is sad that I don’t tell her everything. The truth is I can’t because whenever I do everyone thinks I am stupid to pursue my dream at an age of 22. As I wrote I’m my previous blogs that time doesn’t matter I tend to follow it. The part of moving on is impossible, I say impossible. Its true by my point of prospective, I don’t know what everyone thinks but it’s never the right option. The world is based on binary numbers 1 and 0 and that’s how it goes. There are not right choices, but if they are for you then do it. Go for it. Don’t hold back go to pursue your dreams. It doesn’t matter to think about others. I say don’t move on be focused because sometimes something good comes out from something bad. Use your disappointment, anger, sadness to make your life better and change it to happiness and satisfaction. When that will happen you’d know how not moving on took you from a sad place to a better place. I don’t say that everybody should feel sad all the time but my point is that if you are use it.

Have you ever read the lyrics of song “Fix You” by Coldplay. It’s written from the sadness that Chris Martin’s wife was going through when her dad passed away. All I am saying that if you can’t get over your past then try to change your future by keeping the past mistakes of your life as examples to move ahead not move on. If any siblings out there in the world reading this please, please support each other because it is important. You too may end up at the similar situation someday and would want someone to support you and there your sibling would be standing as a pillar for you.

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Realising or Just Believing ?!?

In every person’s story he/she thinks that he/she is the protagonist. This leads to victimisation of self. I know it because well I see it everyday. We think our life revolves around our story. We are the ones who are the main characters. We think our life is like a book or a movie or a series. We don’t think that maybe everybody thinks its his own story. From the very beginning he makes up his mind to feel that way. It’s not our fault. It what we see and believe that’s what makes us think that our life is our story. You know when I was younger I used to think that I was the protagonist and the whole world revolves around me because they are in my story. As the time passed I started realising that it’s not true and now at this point I am so sure that it’s nobody’s story if we think about it.

As I mentioned in my previous blogs how parents should choose the right Peice of Paper for their children it is because they are the ones who grow up and think that it’s their life story and they are the protagonist. If we keep on with that attitude sometimes its good if everything is going right in their lives but sometimes is not because they can’t or don’t get the things that they were thinking about. It means that only two possibilities happen in these scenarios either he/she would be happy in his life or go so deep down to give up hope and faith. If we think about it the parents too at some point where at the same stage of their child thinking that they were the protagonist and they still do sometimes. To be honest here I see my mom still thinking that she is the protagonist of the story and she victimises herself in so many situations that have been happening around in my house, like the changes caused because of me. Well for me I used to think I was one but I also thought that the real protagonist was my younger sibling and it felt like it so many times. I believe that we grow from generations to generations with so many different life forms replacing us when we move on so I feel that no one is the protagonist here. The first human to know that he/she was the only one on earth without anyone else was the real protagonist and the story ended when he/she passed on. It’s my point of prospective to think it that way. Yet I also believe that maybe we do live a story, but it might be about someone else. If we think about it think it in a way like people who in their lives reach the goal or aim that made them satisfied with their lives are the ones who were the protagonist of their own story after all. The people with whom they are surrounded by all the time were in their story and it wasn’t their story. Also again if you think that there might be two people in one surrounding reaching that point, so what? there can be more than one protagonist in a story. Here I use the word surrounding because of the fact that people usually think that they are in a small room with the people who they know and hangout with most of the time which includes their families, friends, loved ones.

When we think about the whole world instead of a small room it can be considered to be so many people who are living a story but with different endings or various scripts. It’s not always the same. Everyone is different from one another. Each human is different from another. It is because if we a were same then the world be a straight line. There won’t be any graphs in the world we would live in. Everyone would be doing the same thing, nothing would have changed from the moment of the start of the human race till this moment. We might well have been extinct because there wouldn’t be any purpose in our lives. We all would be doing the same things which only a single person could have done. The point is it’s the way of thinking that makes us different. It the thought of thinking this is our story and that we are the protagonist of our own story makes us do something more different and productive in life.

I see some people in my surroundings (as where I live and the people I usually see) and they tend to live the same life. I feel it because well the thing that happened today in the morning in my house. I was eating my breakfast and my mom and dad sat and started telling me that their isn’t happiness in our family anymore and that we have lost the love that we once had. This conversation took a comparison of some of our relatives whom we visited the day before yesterday who seemed happy and joyful at the event of a birthday of my cousin sister. I replied at the above conversation to my parents that it was our situation too when we would celebrate an event it’s natural that we feel joy at an event. To which my mom replied to me that it’s not the way it used to before with us and our family (if you don’t know what I am talking about, go to the blog that I wrote earlier that is Dreaming Or Just Started!?! ) I said

For some people (that is me) we need to understand the purpose in our lives and sometimes to achieve that and feel satisfied of our lives. Sometimes when time seems to be running fast we can’t go back and fix things so we have to focus on the present and move ahead.

My mom replied

It’s already been decided what we (as in the people in general living in her own small room) are supposed to do, they are supposed to live life happily and get settled and be happy with the ones they love.

Here what she meant was we are supposed to live a life that is already written and that we are supposed to do what everyone else does (following a same routine our whole lives). I knew what her point of prospective was and tried to stay quiet. She started telling me that everyone from their family (my cousin’s family) are doing jobs and are living happily, the cousin siblings will get married someday (arrange marriage) and start their own families and live happily. That’s the life from my parent’s point of view. As I know that they want me to do the same but I haven’t yet told them that I am not going to do that and rather focus on my dream to achieve satisfaction in my life doing what I love even if means that I wouldn’t be not earning like the cousin siblings. (If wondering, no, I am not looking to do an arranged marriage at any cost. It doesn’t go with the way my point of prospective works). In my life my family, relatives and the people I know and most people in my country usually have a plan made out for everyone and we are supposed to follow it. It goes like this:

Age 1-16 years – School

Age 16-18 years – 11th and 12 graduation/ diploma in some course

Age 18-21 years – Degree graduation

Age 21-24/25 years – Look for a Job, get a house, get a car/bike/things that you want to start a family

Age 25-30 yearsMarriage

Age 30-35 years – Have Kids

Age 35-60 years – Job and family

Age 60 onwards – live your life or sit quietly or give up everything to your kids and watch them do the same things that they did or just wait for the moment to pass on.

As simple as that looks if some of us try to make a change in it it goes a lot harder. I mean I am the first generation in my family who is trying to make a change and it feels like so I am loosing but the only difference is I am not giving up. My younger sister has this thought that the generation from 1996 (that is me) and onwards when create a new generation ahead of us they are the ones who are going to be happy and not us (this only goes in my family but also alot of families out there because the change in my country is yet to happen completely). For some people who have explored to the whole world they are already there at the time where my sister suggests that our generations would be. I believe that she is telling the truth but yet j don’t want to believe it. It is because I want to be the one who is happy and satisfied rather than waiting to see the future generation that I create happy. We should not stop believing that we can be happy too so why not just give it a try. The point is that I want to believe that I am the protagonist of my story even of I don’t think so as for now. It’s not just me but there are many people out there who know that they are not protagonists of the story and they are in someone else’s story. I know how you feel but just try harder everyday to make yourself the protagonist of your story. There’s a difference between only thinking and making it into reality. If we accept the truth that maybe we are not the protagonists in the world that we live in and try to make it happen by achieving the moment in your life where you would realise that you feel satisfied with your life. That’s my goal.

I am not giving up and nobody should. Maybe everyone is not the same but they should be same here where they should feel satisfied with their lives and be happy to achieve their dreams. The sad truth about reality is that we have less time or atleast that’s what I feel. In such a less time we have to achieve so many things. Our life starts when we realise that their is more to the world rather than what’s inside a small room of people and things that we see everyday. I am not saying that the people in our life are bad for us but I am saying that only focusing onto them and not letting yourself feel the satisfaction of living a wonderful life shouldn’t be a case. We should not think ourselves as the protagonist, we should make it happen and that’s what is right to do. Don’t ever give up as I say always because being a protagonist in real life is different than thinking that your are even when you are not.

See the change and be the change for yourself. Dream and always achieve your dream. Happiness to everyone.

To tell you the truth, I didn’t want it to be motivational but somehow it got to that place after all. And again to all the people out there first of all don’t compare yourself to others, don’t compare to any other person because you are you because everyone is different and the world need you to be this way. Don’t ever give up on your dreams. If any parents reading now that maybe the change is good and let your child change for his own good, he/she will be happy and satisfied in their life realising someday that he/she was the protagonist of his/her life after achieving the dream of life and fulfilling the purpose.

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Piece of Paper ?!?

Hello again, I am again here because of the questions and doubts that are going inside my head all the time. I have been in a bit of down situation myself all this time and am still. I look for answers online by reading various blogs and questions on a site named Quora. I have been battling with a lot of disappointed thoughts and also feelings such as anger (with myself) and sadness (because of the anger and disappointment).

I read a question and it’s answer on Quora itself and it made me think about a situation that everyone goes through but don’t ever pay attention to it. It was a guy asking why should he be living? Interesting question and well the answers were interesting too. First of all everyone suggested him to look for some help if this question is popping in his mind which was obviously correct. Then the answers were seeming so similar to me as I was reading each answer there was written. Everybody told him that the main reason anyone feels this is because a disappoint in their daily lives. Now the disappointment can be anything. It might be because of a job (mostly occuring), the relationships (true), unsatisfied (dreams, daily routines) and sometimes the main question – what is my life worth? Or what is my purpose? True, isn’t it??

I thought about it and yeah there have been situations where I have thought about these questions to myself and I didn’t like the answer because it only said nothing. I know that it’s terrible to have a answer like it. It takes you to this path where you start to vitimize yourself and realise at some point that it’s all your own fault. The reason why you are where you are is because of the choices that you made in the past. Now this part where I said choices is just way too stupid to hear it, because sometimes we are forced to take those choices or we just take them even if we are unaware what it is related to or where it would take us. I read a blog about choices as well and the writer said that we make choices everyday. He explained it by telling that we make a choice by getting up in the morning at specific time and all we do in our day to day lives is a choice. I understand his way of thinking and the way he wanted to focus his point of saying that we make choices all the time. Yet I thought that it’s just not right. It is because when we wake up in the morning we wake up because it’s a routine that we follow and yeah it is a choice but we made it a long way back when we were born and that is the same thing we do it every day. I know it sounds that I couldn’t explain it well. I just want to say that not every thing we do is a choice because sometimes we don’t think before choosing so it’s not a choice. A choice is when there are options to look or think about before choosing anytime. Well thats what I learnt in my school. The thing is sometimes when we choose a job, which we don’t love by the way, to do and give up everything else just to have a financial support for our family. It is like we are forced to choose it because of some situations that come to us in our lives.

That being said I’d like to proceed further by saying that situations and variations that we come across in our lives are the reason every thought and every feeling comes to our minds. The parents out there I’d like to tell you something that might help your kids further. The thing is you see when a child is born it’s not his choice to be coming to life it’s what you decide for him/her. You are the one who is deciding his /her life from that moment that you know that you are gonna be parents till the moment when the child can think for himself. Now the child thinking for himself can happen anytime it’s not like you know when’s the right time, no. And you should make him think for himself because thats what would take him further in his life. It’s like at the time when you are having child at that time you are a hand and the child is a pen and the world is a piece of paper. You start drawing something beautiful and extraordinary with that pen, from a small point it starts. The thing you need to know is that when you are doing so you should choose the right type of paper. There are varieties of papers out there for example: plain white, already scribbled, sometimes not a paper just a small leaf, sometimes just a wall, sometimes someone’s hand, sometimes the ground itself. Now I know that the last four are not papers but yeah those situations occur when you write on it. It’s you decision where you choose to write. If you choose a leaf well then the pen wouldn’t write much, it will be blurry and small. That’s what your child’s life would be because if your decision of choosing a leaf. If you choose to write on a wall then it can stop in between because maybe someone will yell at you for writing on that wall or the pen’s ink will flow backwards or it’s needle will get ruined. If you choose a ground for instance to write well the pen wouldn’t work at all it will be destroyed and would be useless, there won’t be any picture there and even if it is there it wouldn’t be there forever. If you choose a scribbled paper well then you are choosing a life that’s already been drawn and you are choosing your child to go through the same stuff. These situations are just examples of situations that parents choose for their children. So I am saying that you should choose these situations very wisely because after all when you take your hand off and the pen writes on its own it becomes difficult for that pen leaving with the feelings and thoughts that we started the blog with. Sorry that it took so much time to come to the point but it was necessary.

These situations lead people to get where they want and if not chosen correctly it may cause trouble for the children leaving them with these thoughts in the future. Deciding your child’s future is his own responsibility but making sure that he has enough options with him is a parent’s responsibility and it should be done properly. Making sure that he knows how everything works and how to live a happy and satisfied life in every prospective it’s a parent’s responsibility. A parent should plan these things when he knows that he is going to be parent. It’s because maybe some day your child be asking the questions of if he is worth anything or what’s his purpose in life or what is his life’s meaning. You see the point now? For me I don’t now what my life is worth but I know that I am a strong soul and I won’t give up until I know where I want to go. My parents didn’t choose the right paper for me and now when I am at the point where I have no hand to guide me I am in a mess to draw a picture that means my life. So choice, situations, life, feelings, thoughts everything is connected. Be sure that you choose correctly.

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Change! ???

Hi guys. I know that I am writing soon but it is because the question that is going in my mind which I can’t find the answer to. It goes like this: Would you give 4 more years of life just to start developing yourself knowing that the time you already had has lost that is the whole life up till the age you are right now?

I mean do you ever look back into your past and think that it’s gone and can’t be changed, but you want to change it really bad. The reasons may vary for people in this matter as for someone it’ll because of their jobs (which is most commonly considered because we don’t love what we are doing sometimes), then for other it will be something like their life where it is going now, etc. So the point is if they want to change their past and they know that they can’t what do they do? How do they deal with it? Does it not bother them or frustrate them? What actions do they take to improve?

Now don’t think that this guy/girl who is having these thoughts might have some other skill. No, he doesn’t. Think that the guy is at his age of 22 and he wants to pursue his dream but the fact is that he doesn’t have the right skills to pursue them because he was not able to practice them in his past and also that the skills required take a lot longer to be learn. What will this guy do? The scenario also says that he has time limitations in his life brought onto him by his folks as to get settled by the age of 24-25 max. What are his choices?

We’ll take the same scenario with a guy who is 40 years old and is experiencing the similar thoughts. In this case he already is doing a job and he doesn’t enjoy his daily lifestyle routine. He is tired and didn’t realise that his 40 years of life has passed. Suddenly one day it hits him like a big rock on his head that 40 years are gone since he was born and he still haven’t achieved anything or is not feeling satisfied with his life and is not feeling happy. He wants to change his career but he doesn’t know anything else at all. He has never experienced any skills rather than what he learnt in his school and college. The only thing he know is the theory knowledge of his job which he did for so many years. What will he do in this scenario? In this case he has a responsibility of his family to take care of.

These two scenarios sound similar but I think according to alot of people’s opinion they would tell that the guy who is 22 can still pursue his dreams while for the 40 year old it would be difficult. Now I think that for both of them it’s the same thoughts that occurred in their minds and that it meant that they were not satisfied with their lives and wanted to be happy. The past they lived didn’t count for anything in both the scenarios. It’s like the start of their real lives have just started but again we are humans and we have a time limit on our heads. We want to do all the things that we want before the time runs out on us. So what would they both do? If you have any suggestions, comment down below.

I read some blogs where it was the question: what would you advise your younger self ? I thought let’s give this a try and I thought and the 22 year me just wanted to beat some sense in the younger me. It’s not a joke, no, it’s true. I looked back at the younger me and I realised that man the 22 year old guy that I mentioned above is me and he can’t doesn’t have any skills because of the younger me. To tell you the truth the younger me was a stupid little guy who had no idea what the world consisted of. He was just too hung up on the fact that life ends someday and it caused fear in him. It still haunts me sometimes but I have put up some walls between those thoughts so that they can’t enter my mind. The fear made him believe in various fairy tales, magical worlds, hope, beliefs, happiness, etc. Little did he knew that their would be a time when he would loose every thing he believed in and would be like me. I am not a believer anymore it is because well when life has shown it’s true colours you loose all hope. The point is the younger version of me was clueless then which caused a trouble for me now and now it feels like my life would be starting now nad not back then. So yeah that’s the reason why I would beat some sense into that kid back then.

Sometimes I wish that maybe I had an older brother or an older sister who could guide me through life but I don’t so it feels bad. I guide my sister through stuff but you know a I mentioned something in one of my previous blogs (Dreaming or Just Started !?!) how everything works with younger siblings. I don’t say that every younger sibling is like that but sometimes someplace it is like the same situation. The point here is that sometimes you feel like you have no-one to support you or guide you through these situations (not even parents, again from Dreaming or Just Started!?!). So we feel that we are all alone and lonely making us feel down and taking us to the past that we can’t control or change. The only thing we can control now is the present which would result in the change for the future. I say I don’t want to be the 40 year old guy because well at that point I would be too down to even change at all. I might give it a try but still wouldn’t be happy till that time. There would be too many responsibilities.

An interesting thing to think about is what if had no responsibilities what would have happened? Right? I sometimes think that it would have been better as I would be able to focus on my own stuff. Some people whose comments I read in the blog of Niall Doherty would feel the same way. I read a blog of Turr Demeester named The day I decided to break from my parents on be yrslf I thought to myself that these things matter. If you read his blog at some point you would understand what he did. He focused on himself (not that it is wrong) and gave up the responsibilities and he felt was free and happy. I am no saying that everybody should do the same but just the people who go through with the stuff like that they know the feeling that I am talking about. I know that responsibilities are a part of human life or any life form in that matter but sometimes it just feels like they are put onto you even if you don’t want them. The point here is that he made a choice to be with the people who would be better for him not the ones who would be a headache. He couldn’t change his past but he changed his present resulting in the change in his future. The same thing we all should do but we don’t do it sometimes and then become the 40 year old guy who feels down and disappointed by his life.

We all look for satisfaction and happiness and some people get it the right time of their lives but some of us don’t but we shouldn’t give up. It doesn’t matter if you are 40, 50, 60 ,70, 80 for that matter. We should fight for our happiness. The past can’t be changed but the future can. So take a chance even if no one surrounding you appreciate your decision. It’s not for them it’s for you and your happiness that matters. People will be happy as they might get what they want but think for yourself in this matter. Think fir your happiness and satisfaction of life. You’ll get there, just don’t give up. If any older people reading this know that this is for all human beings not just the younger ones. If parents reading this make sure that your child has no issues at his young age and listen your child, support him everytime and also help him make his future better, help him find his happiness. Any siblings reading this remember to support your siblings no matter if they are older or younger they need your help so help them after all you might need their help too. So don’t give up and move forward and find your happiness….

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Do we need buttons?

Hi again, Is this thought ever occurred to your mind of having more than just two buttons in your life? Buttons as in keys. I’d prefer having them in my life. The keys like play, pause, stop, reverse, forward, fast forward, slow speed.

Well the two keys that we already have are play and stop but again we can’t control those either. I mean when we are born it’s the play button who has already been pressed by someone. It’s like we didn’t even choose to play but still we are playing it by living it somehow. The stop button as on the other hand is wrong to choose it means the end of life. The real end when arrives for any person that time again it’s not in our hands to press it as it pressed by someone or something else. Now here I am not saying that I believe in anything or whatnot, I am just saying it as to make a point. So there we have it can’t use these buttons even if we have them in our lives. Hey and listen never use the stop button ever it’s not right from my point of prospective. If you feel like it contact some helping institute or talk to someone closest to you. It’s because I’ll tell you that life is only a one chance thing it doesn’t occur again and again so live it and do everything that you want to even if you feel like you can’t, just try it or meet people who would help. You can go somewhere else where you won’t feel suffocated and live a new life there but never give up on your life. I say it because it hurts everyone more specifically me because I care about each and every person there is living. You are the world and you are important.

Sorry, got off topic, but it was necessary. Now the thing I am trying to say is that these buttons may help us so many ways. The pause button for example, we can pause a happy moment that we are living. We can live that moment by pausing it for as much long as we want. It’s upto us when to start again. Imagine you are with someone you love and they are standing right in front of you with a joyous moment that has happened and you just don’t want it to end you can just pause it and completely live it. The time when you are being a parent and you have your child in your hands and you want to just stay right there looking that precious thing just pausing the moment will give you all the time to live the joy. The point is that time doesn’t wait for anyone and if you can pause the time you can get the time you need to live a moment as long as you want.

Let’s move on to the other buttons that are again most important buttons for some people it’s the forward and fast forward button. Well it’s for the time when you hear someone yelling at you or when you are feeling down because of something or someone. It can also be to skip a boring and wasteful time that is happening in your life. I sometimes wish I’d had that so I can skip all the crap that my family kept throwing at me all the time. Telling me not to do something that I want to do over and over and over again. Just pressing the forward or fast-forward button when I get a hint of what’s happening right now I’ll skip it and be happy rather than being down by their words that hat stuck in my mind which would hurt me later.

Moving on the most important button, like the most, really. The reverse button. People like me again would want this button in their lives. When we want to change the past in their lives or relive the past. I said it’s important for me because well I can go back and do those things that didn’t do and am regretting now. The moments that would change my life and put me somewhere at a place where I want to be. Be happy right now and feel satisfied because of those changes that I might make. The ones who haven’t achieved anything because of some mistakes that they made in their lives could press the reverse button go back and prevent those mistakes. This was just a small point to focus on but if we get greedy, which well we always do because we are humans after all, we would bring the ones who we lost back or even prevent then from going in the first place.

Now I am realising it’s more like a time machine, isn’t it? These buttons are acting like a time machine which would make us travel the space-time continuum. Ha. I didn’t know and I am just realising it. It reminds me of a movie with Adam Sandler and Katie Beckinsale. The movie was a 2006 released movie named Click. It shows a guy with a magic remote that helps him control time in his life. (Spoiler alert) Even if the movie portrays comedy it showed the end as he refuses the remote just to live his life the way he was living at first. Whatever man it wouldn’t matter to him because he already knew the outcomes later so he knew how to live his life further. We would use it carefully, I think.

You see I feel down and I realised that these things matter in life. The buttons because they can help me somehow even when I know that it’s no true. I also think that many people out there would want the same. Some people as I say can’t accept change and it would be easy for them to accept the changes. It will also help the person who wants to change but his/her surrounding is not ready to accept the change. Do you understand what I am trying to say?

Have you seen the movie City of Angels starring Nicholas Cage and Meg Ryan. After watching that movie do you feel the pain of the protagonist? The same pain some people feel and I don’t people to feel the pain so these buttons help us in some way. It’s my way if thinking. It because damn I cried after watching the movie. To be honest I can’t even cry, sorry for lying, instead of crying I always have a weird smile on my face which I try to hide. Even when I am sad I cant cry, no I just it quiet and have a stupid weird smile on my face. It’s terrible I know but thats how deal with my sadness. I don’t want to test the theory though in a more intense way, it’s just everyday issues.

I say we all have that one person that becomes all the buttons for us who makes us forget these buttons and live a happy life. Yet even to have that we have to wait and have patience. Sometimes it’s also the dreams that we have that makes us forget about all these buttons and live happily. We just need to find our buttons or the things that make us forget these buttons and just live our lives. We are not cassette players, CD players, TV remotes, Remotes of electrical toys, etc. We are humans and the specific thing that we have with ourselves is the ability to make a change. So let’s try and do that instead giving up. Buttons or no buttons we will live. We may be sad, down, disappointed in ourselves, angry with ourselves but this life only has one chance so don’t give in and try to find the replacements for these buttons.

All the pictures are taken from Pinterest

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Dreaming or Just Started !?!

Hi everyone, it’s been sometime since I last blogged. There were some ups and downs happening around in my life so I was busy. Don’t think that those are ended, no, they are still going on. More specifically I would call them downs rather than ups.

You know that changes are difficult. When change takes place it is hard for everyone to go through with it. The important thing that we tend to forget or don’t want to pay attention to is that maybe the change might be good for someone. That someone might want to change because of a specific and intimate reason that he/she doesn’t wanna share. The fact that we ignore is we think for ourselves and from our point of prospective and not the other person’s view. We become selfish in this matter.

Today I am talking about this because I came across a blog named Your Parents VS Your Dreams by “Niall Doherty“. I read it all and it was well written. The example that he used about Paulo Coelho a Brazilian writer and his childhood was brilliant. The writers childhood changes and the effects of the same on his family got me to thinking that the world has moved ahead but the people haven’t. Niall talked about how Paulo’s parents treated him when he decided to pursue writing as his career when he was young and how it didn’t affect him. You should read his blog on eBiz Facts before going ahead with this blog.

Niall mentioned that Paulo’s parents took him (Paulo) to the mental facility to give him electric shocks so that he can change his mind about pursuing his writing career. The blog also mentioned that how Paulo reacted when he was asked about his feelings towards his parents when he became a writer. He said:

I did not need to forgive them, because I never blamed them for what happened. From their own point-of-view, they were trying to help me to get the discipline necessary to accomplish my deeds as an adult, and to forget the “dreams of a teenager.”

This was good, really good response. Then I read the comments section and yeah there are people like us who do have the similar problems.

There is someone who wants to pursue his dreams and he wants to give it his full potential but then there are people who hold him back. I know I shouldn’t say that because those people are most often his own parents and family. Sometimes you think maybe that your little brother or sister will help you out but they don’t. They act like it but they are more concerned about themselves as they are younger and have their own dreams to fulfill. Sometimes we wish that we were born in a modern family who would appreciate us for what we want. So many things right?

According to my research I have found out that most successful people in following their dreams are the younger ones in one family. It’s a fact not a joke. It’s more often than you think. It’s mostly in the families where the older ones too have some bigger dreams and they are pulled back from achieving them. It has always pinpointed to children that the parents who couldn’t fulfill their dreams see their dreams in their own child. I think that’s wrong because it just doesn’t make any sense. I say that you always should go for your own dreams and fulfill them or atleast give it a try. Don’t try to make a dream for your child, let him/her make his/her own dreams, you just support their decisions. Living in the real world is difficult but when you are doing something that you love it becomes easier because you are happy and are making happy memories.

I have a theory of my own, I think that if you are happy then the people around you are happy. That’s the fact. So if you are not happy no-one else you hangout with is going to be happy. Our parents don’t think the same. They are of the old thoughts. I agree that they want to protect us but shouldn’t they see what the child wants. You know words get stuck with you till the end. People say that actions speak louder than words but words stay with you till the end and words hurt more than action. In my experience I have heard a lot of words they are still there with me which hurt. It hurts so much but I can’t tell anyone because it’s from the loved-ones themselves. The point is that don’t use harsh words unless you know the reason behind what the person is doing what he is doing. To tell you the truth I feel jealous of today’s generation that is the kids below the age of 16 years. It’s because they get what they want from the start of their time (it’s my way of thinking). They are blessed with the parents who know how the world works and they try to be better at the part of giving their child a better idea of living life.

When I read the comments of the above mentioned blog I felt everybody’s feelings. I knew how everyone on that blog might have felt. It is like that people have responsibilities of their families on their shoulders. It makes it hard for them to go and pursue their own dreams of their own families won’t support them. I see people who reach at a level of success in their lives say that they thank their families for the support they have recieved. I think how is this possible for these people? Was is true? Did they really get the support that they needed? What would the people who don’t get the support say?

In those comments I even saw that people say that it’s not their families fault that they don’t get support while pursuing their dreams. Well I think how do people say that. I mean what if imaging the negative side happens, not that I want it to happen to anyone ever, what would happy then? Its like this, sometimes when we focus completely on our families and don’t even make a start to pursue our dreams doesn’t it hurt when you get older and feel unsatisfied with your life. I know that there are some people who give up their dreams just to support their own family’s wishes and after a while passes by when they reach at an older age that is 40-50 years of age they feel down and think that their life never had any meaning. They feel down all the time, sad, disappointed, angry at everyone and everything. They couldn’t focus on anything at all at that time. I don’t want anyone to feel that way because it hurts more than you think. I speak by experience. It not just for that specific age it is applicable at all the ages after 18 years or 21 years by my point of view.

I’ll tell you that when I was 16 I had bigger plans till I get to the age of 22 and now I am going to be 22 and yet I haven’t done anything because I was too busy supporting my family and holding it together. This time around from December-2018 I made a pledge to start my journey and I did but it has changed the surroundings in the house. My whole family hates me now (that’s what I feel), they think I am being very selfish, I am not thinking at all, I am stupid and dumb and I am doing this for no reason. That is true. That’s what my family thinks about me. They keep yelling at me, blame me, keep on lecturing me and when I don’t give a rat’s ass they just become sad and disappointed. So there you go I have so many negative and harsh words in my mind that sometimes I feel like crying and giving up but I don’t do that because it’s just not the way to go anymore. I have to aim ahead to pursue my dream and not focus on what my family thinks anymore. It’s not like I quit my education and am not doing any job so that the finance keeps flowing it’s just that I am keeping my dreams private and not want you to know and interfere my life anymore. Even though I care about them still they have to accept the changes that are going around in the house recently because maybe paitence will bring something positive atleast (as for me being happy). If any younger siblings are reading this and experiencing your older sibling going through the same process don’t start tormenting them, support them just the way they support you because even that have dreams. And if any parent reading this just support your child.

Again I say support each person’s dreams because they are sometimes the things that make them happy. And Don’t use words that might hurt anyone because if you do know that when they are alone these words eat them alive inside making them vulnerable towards any bad things (universally speaking) they might end up doing. Be happy and let everyone stay happy.

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Was it Mindfulness??

Did you ever feel satisfied after fighting with your own self about a thing that you are supposed to do? Like helping a guy who needs it?? I read a blog named “The Blind Leading The Blind” by “Fractured Faith Blog” and I got inspired to write today’s blog. It inspired me because a similar incident happened with me some days ago and the same thoughts that came to the writers of the above mentioned blog “Stephen” and “Fionnuala” came to me.

The story was that I was with my sister and we were going someplace from the train. On the station I encountered a blind guy who was asking for help from people randomly. He seemed desperate and all alone. There was no one who was taking a step forward to help that poor guy. He wanted to go catch a train which was arriving on platform number one and me and my sister we’re going on platform number 3 and our train had already arrived. We walked by him as we were in a hurry and we heard him calling for a little help. Me and my sister looked at each other thinking that maybe someone would help him instantly but nothing happened. As we were going on ahead, my sister spoke randomly to me that he’s so poor and the situation is so bad. You see me and my sister are both awkward and can’t talk to anyone that’s a stranger. We can’t interact with the world like other people normally do.

The thoughts that came to the writers of the above mentioned blog about there experience were a little similar to my thoughts. It was like there was another me who was not letting me help that person because of all the insecurities or I don’t know maybe anxiety that was in me. Yet somehow there was a fight in my head, I was fighting myself and I don’t know who won but I turned back and went to that man. I held his hand and asked him “how can I help you?” He replied calmly that he doesn’t know what time it is and that what train are there on the stations. I informed him about the time as well the trains and asked him where did he wanna go. He answered me that he wanted to go Borivali (That’s in India by the way, travelling from Dadar which is in Mumbai). Whereas me and my sister we’re going the opposite way from his destination. I helped him by taking him to the platform number one because that’s where the train was gonna arrive. I asked him if I should come with him till he gets in the train but he told me that there is no need for that and that he can manage. I bid him goodbye and went on my way. My sister and me went to board our train from another platform but until that guy’s train arrived I was only thinking if he would have or wouldn’t have boarded his train. When his train left I couldn’t see him on that platform. There I felt relived and I went on my journey.

That day I felt satisfied. I felt like I have achieved something in my life. It was not a goal or a dream, it was just the ability to understand others and support and help them. It was like making a new friend who wouldn’t even remember me probably and vice versa. To tell you the truth I am not gonna forget that guy because he was like an angel whom I helped and in return I got happiness. It wasn’t like the feeling of getting something that you wanted but it was a different kind of happiness or satisfaction. I felt like I won the fight with myself to do something good and reached that point where the real meaning of life didn’t matter. I always have felt bad for the people who are differently abled. It is because maybe in my past I have always wanted to experience what others feel. I have closed my eyes and didn’t imagine anything or any color just to know what the blind people may see. I have done somethings like that for many other times imagining myself in different scenarios. I felt angry and bothered for them even if they don’t feel the same way. Don’t take me wrong, I am not saying that it is bad or I am not saying that these people can’t experience the life like I do. I just never had a chance to know what these guys might think. I will tell one more thing that when I was a small kid and whenever I used to see a guy who was differently abled I used to get scared and I felt bad about it when I grew up. I just didn’t know how they might feel when any small child gets scared looking at them. I am terribly sorry for those things I did when I was a child as I didn’t know any better back then. I didn’t mean to hurt anyone’s feelings and it just made me feel bad when I grew up thought about those things.

The point is that everyone goes through some stuff in life. No one is the same because if we were all one and the same then it would be just one person living on the whole earth. And I also want to suggest to you that when anyone who might seem that he/she needs help, help them. Take the first step to make someone’s life easier and better by helping them. The people who think about what others might think fight against yourself in your head to take the right step. It may be hard at first but at some point in your lives you would get to that point and you would feel better helping others. I don’t know what this blog brings into focus but I just want to say that everyone is different and every one has a way of thinking so respect that and support each other in every way because the truth is we all are human. I know this blog actually started about the people who feel insecurity and anxiety and ended up differently. Sorry about that. The thing was I took stopped writing it yesterday and continued it today making it go in another direction. I was just pointing out that I understood what the blog that I mentioned above earlier meant. So yeah that’s all.

PS : Don’t get offended I was just, thinking out loud.

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Crush or Love??

Today let’s focus on love shall we?? I feel like I should bring that topic out in the light. What is love? What’s the difference between true love and a crush?? How does love happen? How does it work?? So many questions right??

We’ve all had crushes in our lives, haven’t we? Some of the crushes were really good and strong. It was hard for us to let that crush go away. The first crush that you had was always the one you would remember. It stays with you your whole life, even if it couldn’t go any further. I’ll tell you my first crush is the one that I’ll never forget and it never became anything more than a crush. The most of my life I’ve only had crushes and never done anything about them.

How do you know that the person you have a crush on can be turned into something more than a crush further? If he/she is the person that is meant to be with you? If it can be true love? The answer is that you wouldn’t know about that until you give it a go. Don’t just stay there try to express your feelings to the person you have a crush. I know for some people it’s hard to do so. Well I am one of you and I won’t take the first step ever. The reason behind is because well I can’t start the conversation. It is also because I don’t know if that person feels the same about me or not or if she has a boyfriend or not. Well you see it’s hard isn’t it? I don’t want to go confess my feelings and ruin that chance that I had in my mind. You get it? It means in my head it was already a thing and if I go out and get shot down I will feel bad.

The reason we all want to look good is because we don’t want to be the first person to start a conversation in these matters. So if we look good maybe there is like a small chance that they will come to us to talk to. I believe that everyone looks incredible and it’s just the way of the other person looking at you. I believe that I look at a person and her openness, her cool attitude, confidence in herself, she being full of life, enjoying every moment of life and many more things. The point is that looks are a totally different prospective to look at a person, you should focus on that person’s soul and his/her mind after all that’s what is important. I’ll tell you a really deep secret about me, I love a person but she doesn’t even know that I love her and I say love because I know my feelings. Amazing right?? If there is anyone else out there just like me here, please comment and don’t loose hope, we’ll be with that person someday if we tried.

Love is caring for someone so deeply that you want them to be smiling and laughing all the time, experience each and every moment in life with them. That’s what love really means. It’s not just about sex, people. I am telling you this because that’s what I believe. We are all grown up and we should think that way. I am not saying that people just want sex, no, I am saying that today’s dating world mostly work on that. The people who are young don’t actually know the right meaning of the word and they believe that’s the thing that a person can’t live without, well they are wrong. Love is the most important thing in the world and that’s the thing no one can live without. I say don’t loose hope just go on and try your best luck because there is a person out there who is waiting for you the same way you are for them. All you have to do is open your eyes and take a step forward without hesitation. And a tip for everyone, take the initiative if the other isn’t, you see it’s hard for some people. You know for me I always believed that the best kind of love was with your best friend. It is because you know each other so well and you know each and everything about each other – the good and the bad habits and many more things. It is just a perfect kind of love. It is like a television romance if you would ask me and sometimes that do work out. There are people who are happy and live happily with the ones they love. So go for it if you have any feelings for each other. If you have a crush go and ask that person for a date. Don’t just sit and wait for an opportunity because believe me when I say that it never arrives. If I only had that chance I would be so glad that at least I took a step and talked to that person. Maybe it won’t go any further, maybe he/she is not the one meant for me but still I tried and now I have no regrets. At least I know that person and I can be friends with them (if they want it too).

Love is a delicate as well as a really strong thing. It’s up to us how to balance it’s both end properly. That’s what matters. We want to love and be loved and that’s not a right of a human being but an important prospect of everyone’s life. So give it a go, don’t wait for a stupid opportunity, just try your best to be you and only you making that person fall for you for who you are. If it happens that’s what then you will definitely experience the true love.

P.S: Don’t tell anyone that I love someone who doesn’t even know that I love her because it can be termed as a crush until I do something about it and it seems funny. Haha

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Is It Necessary??

Do you forget some things which are in fact involved in your day to day routine?? I know we all do. People around us say that maybe we were thinking about something else which made us forget the things that we usually do. Do you think it’s true?

Well everyone does think that it’s true and it is quite related to everyone. You see it’s the tension or stress or that one thing that bothers us which make us forget the thing we do everyday. Let me give you an example: I go to my college everyday and everyday it’s a nightmare because let’s be honest it’s not like the colleges that are shown in the movies. We have to face assignments, projects, the blames from our professors for everything we did wrong everytime even if it’s a mistake. You see some professors are like that but not everyone is bad. The point is you think about this kind of stuff while you are doing something else and that’s when it happens when you seem to forget the one thing that you do the most often. For me I have a routine everyday that is I wake up, get fresh (it means we empty our stomachs by the way if you don’t know that), go to the gym (somedays), come back home, eat breakfast, take a bath, put on some clothes, fix-up my backpack and then leave for my college. Now while doing so if I start thinking about my other stuff that’s been bothering me like for instance the only fact that I don’t want to go to the college because it’s a waste of my time, I forget to fix-up my backpack and leave with the same old things that I carried yesterday to the college. I might forget to charge my mobile phone, forget to get some cash from my mother, forget to take my mobile phone, etc.

This was just the regular stuff I talked about but there are so many other things as well for example you think about your future, you think about your happiness, you think about your family and their happiness, you think about the person that you love and care about, you think about the dream that you were dreaming while you were asleep and many more things. I know it is frustrating just to think about everything but we still do so and it does frustrate us but we still don’t give up. In some way we kinda like it. It gives a meaning to life because it feels like we are busy the whole day. It’s just the way a human mind thinks.

The question here you should ask yourself here should be, Is it important to think so much about the stuff that isn’t even important?? You see we sometimes think too much about a specific thing like for example I used to think what should I buy while buying a snack and I use to think so much about it that I use to forget that there are much more bigger things to give importance rather than something so small. I can eat anything I want but what about what I wanna do when I grow up, right? I say don’t think too much of the stuff that doesn’t even matter only try to focus on the things that actually matter. Don’t take it like just think about the stuff but also work on it and try and find to do something about it. The small things are not gonna change anything in your future. If a small thought comes to your head then do it. I say when you see a blind person asking for help don’t think just help him. Don’t think too much especially not after you have already passed the moment a long time ago. You know I use to think about that stuff too but now I gave that up and now I just do the things that come to my head. It’s easier that way. There are no regrets later, you feel good and that’s all that matters. It doesn’t matter what people will think, just care of what you will think about yourself.

I am going to be honest here I have a little OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive disorder) and I do the unwanted things just to make sure that if I do it that way it’s going to okay. It’s my way of thinking. I still do that and I think many people would do that. The people who follow a routine on purpose and think that if they don’t something is going to be wrong know what I am talking about. I used to bite my nails and the skin that was near the nails of my fingers from the time I was little. I sometimes even went so far that I used to hurt my fingers and they used to bleed sometime giving me pain yet I still used to do that. Now I don’t do that anymore because I finally gave it up by trying so bad by following a regime that would not let me do that. I started eating a lot whenever I wanted to bite my finger nails or I started drinking a lot of water. It was like I was trying to quit smoking (I don’t smoke it’s just the way I felt) but it worked and yeah I don’t bite my nails anymore. Also to be honest I made myself think about the person that I love and how would she feel when she tries to hold my hand. You see you just need the right reasons to do the good for yourselves.

Find your reasons and find the things that matter to you to do the right thing and focus on your life.

I think we came onto the wrong topic, sorry about that but just stop thinking about little things they are not gonna change anything. If you want to make a change try to make a change yourself. Stand up and move on.

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